More from my journey

May 1, 2017
Lizards everywhere 🙂

Lynn’ism:
There’s something especially wonderful about watching a boy
grow into a man,
and even more special if the man retains some of the
sweetness of the boy.
– C.Lynn

May 3, 2017
Dragonfly today – 1st thing I saw looking out the kitchen window
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I came here thinking, I’m so tired of people taking care of me. I don’t want people taking care of me. I want to take care of myself.

‘hurt people, hurt people’
reject to protect from rejection,
try to buy love or manipulate people.

God is the healer of hurts.
It is God that softens the heart – drives out fear;
replaces the stone in the heart,
with the tenderness of flesh in the heart.

May 4, 2017
I should hold onto hope –
always persevere in hope.

May 5, 2017
Help me Lord,
protect me Lord,
and help me still, to do what is right,
even in my protection.
Relieve me not of my compassion,
of my heart,
my love for others.
Guide me always in kindness,
even as I am protected.
Keep my eyes clear,
and my will strong.
Let me not fall to deceptions.

As I went and sat on the front porch to make a phone call, immediately:
Blue dragonfly sat down right beside me (again) today. (and I mean, ‘right beside me’, …on the chair, not on the ground)
Hope? encouragement?

Started my day with seeing the bad news out of Virginia.  😦

I want life to be ‘fun’ again.

another itty-bitty green grasshopper hopped into my sphere today.

Grasshopper, Locust Power Animal, Symbol of Leaping Forward
If the grasshopper-locust leaps into your life, then you are being asked to take a leap of faith, to do something without fear

Interesting.

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I want life to be ‘fun’ again.

Lord make me strong to endure

more ‘lessons’, or, Journaling from the Journey  🙂

Lord make me strong to endure

I don’t want gifts,
I want kindness.

Lord deliver me!

God help me to do Your will.
God deliver me.

I try to understand them.
I also care about myself.

Lord make me strong to endure.

 
April 30, 2017
Lots of ideas;
Very little in the way of solutions.

 
And as she lay there, legs outstretched,
one hand laying on her belly near her book and her eyeglasses,
the other arm laying over and atop her head to ease her pains,
she heard the voices of children
as she recalled days with her own.
Her eyes had become too heavy to keep open,
and wondering why she must still live, she drifted into the memories.

The bright yellow flowers have been out all the day today,
perhaps because of the early rains.
A solo white flower beckons to her from a few feet away. She wants to pluck it to take in with her, and yet it wouldn’t / doesn’t seem right to do so.

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(maybe someday I’ll actually be able to write the novel that I’ve always intended to write… or maybe my son-in-law, the other writer, will take my notes and do it for me someday? I still dream of making it happen.)

June 10 – green dragonflies today

Dragonflies make me think of little biological drones.

As I was hanging my head with despondency today,

(I can’t help feeling like God is letting me down.  I seek His Word.  I pray.  I exercise patience and obedience; and yet He is showing me no avenues.  (i.e., I’ve been having near major health symptoms again)   I feel I am living a slow tortuous death.  I know it could be worse – but could it ?  Where can I go to be healthy ?  Just Monday when my daughter was taking me through the drive thru at McDonald’s we caught the reek of marijuana coming from the car in front of us.  There is no where to escape anymore.)

sitting outside, I felt something land on my knee.  Lifting my head and opening my eyes I saw that a green dragonfly sat there.  (eating his meal of some other insect, which was really kind of freaky)  I let it sit there on my knee for a bit before I shooed it off.  (I couldn’t take the sight of it eating after a while.)  Then a blue dragonfly came and sat near my feet.

Peaceful sound of birds singing in the background.

Gorgeous full moon tonight.

moon

I scared up an itty-bitty green grasshopper today.
Saw blue/green dragonflies, among others.  There are such a variety of dragonflies.

Each new leg of this journey is meant to teach me something.
Each new leg has revealed, taught me, things.
I pray I will remember those things.

more from ‘the journey’

April 27, 2017

I sit today, among the birds,
beneath the tree arbor,
in the shade,
with a sprinkling of sun,
and a good gusty (warm) breeze.

The birds, they come close to me,
accepting me,
passing by,
and sitting near.

The 3 crows – they return
and the raven over my left shoulder shrieks an ear piercing call, then fly’s.
The mourning dove coos from the ground behind me
and a cardinal joins the mix.

The crows inhabit the tree, the beautiful tree, at the back. I wish I could capture that tree, draw it, photograph it, paint it,
preserve it in memory forever.

‘Hoo, hoo, hoo’, the mourning dove calls from nearby.

I emerge from the arbor,
the quiet, peaceful, secret place.
The sun feels good.
The sun always feels good.

Psalm 17
I am pleading for Your help, O’ Lord; for I have been honest
and have done what is right,
attend unto my cry and give Your ear unto my earnest prayers!
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Baby oil? :-o

I love Alistair Begg and his teachings because they are lighthearted and always include humor.
Today’s talk on anxiety, and how people worry when God (particularly Jesus many times) says not to… included this bit of wit.

Olive oil comes from olives.
Peanut oil comes from peanuts.
Where does baby oil come from ! ? 😮

On another talk I heard this:

“When the game is over, it all goes back in the box”,

which I find to be very profound. It’s meant as an analogy about life.
a book by John Ortberg

Monopoly