I can not be positive today.
Originally I wanted to be, but I can not.
I am not a good game player. I am not a game player at all when it comes to people. I lose. I do not play.
and if I am going to lose I would rather quit now, than lose later.
So if we want to name a positive about myself today…
I am not a game player….
which, as it turns out, is a positive about me,
but also a negative, since it only grieves me as the game players that I can not keep from touching my life, best me in their games and insincerity.
I want to retreat from life.